WTF am I doing?

WTF am I doing?

Who am I? What am I doing? Right now I don’t have the answer to either of these things. Sometimes I find myself thinking about my life and how it could all have been so different. How I could now have all I thought I desired. The job, the husband, the kids, the house and […]

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I miss you already

I miss you already

I wasn’t prepared for this part of traveling. The part where you meet new people and because you get on you stick together for a short while or a long while or until your plans no longer run side by side. My 1st traveling Sismance is over. I met to crazy London ladies Minnie and […]

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Depression kills you

Depression kills you

As I sit on the top deck of this boat making a crossing to the island of Ilha Grande I look around and see uninhabited islands of dense green, I look back to shore and see mountains that meet clouds with just a small sign that humans exist here. Just along the coast where the […]

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What you gain when you give up everything

What you gain when you give up everything

I’ve been on the road now for almost 2 and half months. I’ve visit the Caribbean and tried kite surfing, I’ve partied at Rio carnivals infamous Bloco parties, swam in waterfalls, taken a 32.5 hour bus journey, climbed into a volcano and I still have 6 months to go. It’s been a roller coaster of […]

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Surviving 32.5 hours on a bus

Surviving 32.5 hours on a bus

After 9 flights, 4 boat journeys and 4 bus trips of which find myself on the 4th i can say i have clearly changed. This current bus journey isn’t just any bus journey it’s a 29/30 hour bus journey and as i write this this we’re stuck in a non moving traffic jam so i’m […]

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Happy Valentines Day to my other 1/2

Happy Valentines Day to my other 1/2

Happy Valentines Day To my love (from a single me) – I am waiting for you and i’ll know you when you arrive. My other 1/2. There will be no settling for someone who isn’t you. There will be no exceptions. I know you are out there somewhere. I know we will find each other […]

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I am a failure

I am a failure

Failure. Success. What do they really mean? Am I a failure? That’s a question I have asked myself often. Not only a question but ‘I am a failure’ is a thought and a belief that has lived with me most my life. I messed up my GCSE’s, didn’t finish college, I didn’t go to university […]

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How it feels to be a loner

How it feels to be a loner

It turns out traveling on your own is such a learning and growth experience because funnily enough you are on your own. When you think about and imagine things they’re never accurate. Things are very rarely as you imagined them. I tend not to imagine too much and to try live with now. It works […]

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Sex and me……..

Sex and me……..

Love. It and my search for it is the only thing that can blindside me for whatever i am doing, planned to do and want to do. As i write this tears are running down my cheeks. When my mum died i lost more than a physical person i lost love. The warm, safe and […]

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So you think i’m confident?

So you think i’m confident?

My time in St Vincent is over. I started my trip here because i love this place and it is my favourite place on earth. Being here for the last month, exploring the Island and meeting people has been magical. As i write this i can feel my heart sinking. This place feels like home […]

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