I used to be really good at always looking for the worst in every scenario. All it took was for something to not go how i wanted it to and i’d be devastated. It would be the end of the world to me, i’d get myself into such a state. It truly was an exhausting way to be. Often feeling pity for myself and my situation, always having something or someone else to blame for how i was feeling. My sisters passing was when my life changed. She didn’t have a choice, she had to go but i was and still am here. I knew that my life and way of being had to change. You get one shot at this life time. We aren’t meant to be miserable and sad. Even when things aren’t going how we want there is always something to be grateful for. Always. No matter how small.
“If you change the way you look at the things, the things you look at change.” – Dr Wayne Dyer
I wanted to share with you something that i started doing recently. I started a ‘Gratitude’ notebook. As often as i can i write in this note book and i start the page with ‘5 things that happened yesterday that i am grateful for today’ and the i list my 5 things. These things range from the tube being at the station as soon as i arrive, amazing food i have eaten, meetings i have, my friends and family, myself, my home, not having a hangover, waking up and the list goes on and on.
I realised i can spend my time focusing on what i want and what i think i need but that means i’m focusing on whats lacking, on what i don’t already have. It also means my focus is outside of myself when really if i feel i am lacking anything the one place i need to change is inside of myself.
Life is an exciting journey but one on which you should be happy. If you’re not chose something different for yourself. It maybe hard to admit or comprehend but you and only you are responsible for your own happiness.
Love to you all,