Last week was insane. I was sent a letter stating my operation had been moved to February and then I was called to say it was a mistake and that it was on the 14th January but I had alway been told the 15th January. So after all that the date is now set for 21st January. Phew
I had my pre operation appointment and talked through nipples, scars, after op bras, risks, complications, expectations and again my surgeon reminded me why I’m doing this. After that i felt completely on purpose and if it’s even possible i felt even more so that this is what i want and know is right for me.
Then I had my ‘Goodbye Boobs’ party.
It was a night of drinking, dancing, celebrating and feeling loved and supported. Friends new and old turned up and I am so, so grateful to each & everyone of you.
I have decided to keep working everyday up until the operation because I’m not ill, there is nothing wrong with me and I don’t want to sit around and dwell on anything.
I have had so much support across comments on this site, social media and via emails from people hearing my story. Those responses mean so much to me. It feels like because I have been sharing with people as a result people are sharing with me. It’s been such a blessing. I no longer feel alone. I have all the answers to my questions from people who have been there and done that. It’s so beautiful that just sharing your story can inspire so much amazingness.
Whether you are in a similar situation to me or your situation is completely different to mine doesn’t concern me. What does is that you realise if you aren’t happy being you and living your life then it’s time to make some changes. I feel really passionate about telling everyone i meet that our lives are completely in our own hands. Other can affect the conditions around you, they can access your physical body but they can never be or have influence on whats inside. That is own by us and us alone. Remember that that is truly a beautiful thing. If you want change on the outside you must 1st change whats on the inside and that my friends is something that with want and determination we can all do.
Peace and love,