Don’t end your life just live a new one

Don’t end your life just live a new one

Recently someone very close to me attempted to take there life. As someone who has suffered with depression, eating disorders and self loathing, as someone who has helplessly watched her mother and sister die. I know what it is to fantasies about not existing anymore, to imagine freedom from what I think and how feel. […]

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I woke up ‘feeling’ like this

I woke up ‘feeling’ like this

This morning I woke up at 6.30am filled with energy. I decided to put some shoes on, grab a blanket and climb on to the roof terrace of my hostel to watch the sunrise in Buenos Aires. There isn’t much of a sunrise but despite traffic noise there is a peaceful quality about being up […]

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WTF am I doing?

WTF am I doing?

Who am I? What am I doing? Right now I don’t have the answer to either of these things. Sometimes I find myself thinking about my life and how it could all have been so different. How I could now have all I thought I desired. The job, the husband, the kids, the house and […]

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I miss you already

I miss you already

I wasn’t prepared for this part of traveling. The part where you meet new people and because you get on you stick together for a short while or a long while or until your plans no longer run side by side. My 1st traveling Sismance is over. I met to crazy London ladies Minnie and […]

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Depression kills you

Depression kills you

As I sit on the top deck of this boat making a crossing to the island of Ilha Grande I look around and see uninhabited islands of dense green, I look back to shore and see mountains that meet clouds with just a small sign that humans exist here. Just along the coast where the […]

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What you gain when you give up everything

What you gain when you give up everything

I’ve been on the road now for almost 2 and half months. I’ve visit the Caribbean and tried kite surfing, I’ve partied at Rio carnivals infamous Bloco parties, swam in waterfalls, taken a 32.5 hour bus journey, climbed into a volcano and I still have 6 months to go. It’s been a roller coaster of […]

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Surviving 32.5 hours on a bus

Surviving 32.5 hours on a bus

After 9 flights, 4 boat journeys and 4 bus trips of which find myself on the 4th i can say i have clearly changed. This current bus journey isn’t just any bus journey it’s a 29/30 hour bus journey and as i write this this we’re stuck in a non moving traffic jam so i’m […]

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Happy Valentines Day to my other 1/2

Happy Valentines Day to my other 1/2

Happy Valentines Day To my love (from a single me) – I am waiting for you and i’ll know you when you arrive. My other 1/2. There will be no settling for someone who isn’t you. There will be no exceptions. I know you are out there somewhere. I know we will find each other […]

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I am a failure

I am a failure

Failure. Success. What do they really mean? Am I a failure? That’s a question I have asked myself often. Not only a question but ‘I am a failure’ is a thought and a belief that has lived with me most my life. I messed up my GCSE’s, didn’t finish college, I didn’t go to university […]

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How it feels to be a loner

How it feels to be a loner

It turns out traveling on your own is such a learning and growth experience because funnily enough you are on your own. When you think about and imagine things they’re never accurate. Things are very rarely as you imagined them. I tend not to imagine too much and to try live with now. It works […]

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