The only things that can stop you are the things inside

When I was at school I loved writing. It was a blissful escape for me. I could create a new world and disappear into it. This was especially great when I was at secondary school with the bullying, hating myself and missing my mum. I was in year 9 when my English teacher accused me […]

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Stop judging ME – A note to self

Stop judging ME – A note to self

What people think of me should not matter but it really really does. I often write about thoughts and beliefs that I have had for a long time that control so much of my life. What other people think of me is definitely one of those. I’m not sure exactly when it started but I […]

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6 months ago I quit my life

6 months ago I quit my life

6 months since I left my life, family, friends and career in London behind. 6 months since I made huge decision that I needed to leave everything I knew to see the world. To find my missing piece. To finally become a whole person. To feel free. How is it going? Was it worth it? […]

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Don’t end your life just live a new one

Don’t end your life just live a new one

Recently someone very close to me attempted to take there life. As someone who has suffered with depression, eating disorders and self loathing, as someone who has helplessly watched her mother and sister die. I know what it is to fantasies about not existing anymore, to imagine freedom from what I think and how feel. […]

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I woke up ‘feeling’ like this

I woke up ‘feeling’ like this

This morning I woke up at 6.30am filled with energy. I decided to put some shoes on, grab a blanket and climb on to the roof terrace of my hostel to watch the sunrise in Buenos Aires. There isn’t much of a sunrise but despite traffic noise there is a peaceful quality about being up […]

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WTF am I doing?

WTF am I doing?

Who am I? What am I doing? Right now I don’t have the answer to either of these things. Sometimes I find myself thinking about my life and how it could all have been so different. How I could now have all I thought I desired. The job, the husband, the kids, the house and […]

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I miss you already

I miss you already

I wasn’t prepared for this part of traveling. The part where you meet new people and because you get on you stick together for a short while or a long while or until your plans no longer run side by side. My 1st traveling Sismance is over. I met to crazy London ladies Minnie and […]

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Depression kills you

Depression kills you

As I sit on the top deck of this boat making a crossing to the island of Ilha Grande I look around and see uninhabited islands of dense green, I look back to shore and see mountains that meet clouds with just a small sign that humans exist here. Just along the coast where the […]

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What you gain when you give up everything

What you gain when you give up everything

I’ve been on the road now for almost 2 and half months. I’ve visit the Caribbean and tried kite surfing, I’ve partied at Rio carnivals infamous Bloco parties, swam in waterfalls, taken a 32.5 hour bus journey, climbed into a volcano and I still have 6 months to go. It’s been a roller coaster of […]

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Surviving 32.5 hours on a bus

Surviving 32.5 hours on a bus

After 9 flights, 4 boat journeys and 4 bus trips of which find myself on the 4th i can say i have clearly changed. This current bus journey isn’t just any bus journey it’s a 29/30 hour bus journey and as i write this this we’re stuck in a non moving traffic jam so i’m […]

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